I have already asked “Who am I?” now I am asking “Where am I?” It is strange to ask such questions of oneself; however I still must ask this one. It is truly a loss of oneself if these simple 2 questions can not be answered from within. The reason that I ask myself who I am is because I am not even sure at the moment.
Last night while enjoying some fishing my bro asked me if I was ok or not, however my answer was something that caused a concern for him. I told him that I am ok, but feeling distant. Which I am still feeling today, very very distant.
I have many things on my mind in reference to everyone else. The main point is that I am feeling that I do not want to get too close to anyone, so I am starting to become withdrawn from others. I am one of the Cmdrs. for my group and was very open before about having around or just having fun with everyone from the group when we were not working, but now…. I will not do it. I am only going to be about the business. I will not allow personal thoughts and or feelings get into the way. When I am on duty I am there in a business capacity, when I am finished duty, I separate and stay away from others on a personal level.
There are a few that I will not be like this with, however it will still be there for a short while; at least until I can set myself to where I am comfortable.
I am afraid that for some, the Hechicero of the past is gone.
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~ by Hechicero on Thursday, 2008 June 12.
Posted in H. Blanco's Personal Comments.
Where am I?
I have already asked “Who am I?” now I am asking “Where am I?” It is strange to ask such questions of oneself; however I still must ask this one. It is truly a loss of oneself if these simple 2 questions can not be answered from within. The reason that I ask myself who I am is because I am not even sure at the moment.
Last night while enjoying some fishing my bro asked me if I was ok or not, however my answer was something that caused a concern for him. I told him that I am ok, but feeling distant. Which I am still feeling today, very very distant.
I have many things on my mind in reference to everyone else. The main point is that I am feeling that I do not want to get too close to anyone, so I am starting to become withdrawn from others. I am one of the Cmdrs. for my group and was very open before about having around or just having fun with everyone from the group when we were not working, but now…. I will not do it. I am only going to be about the business. I will not allow personal thoughts and or feelings get into the way. When I am on duty I am there in a business capacity, when I am finished duty, I separate and stay away from others on a personal level.
There are a few that I will not be like this with, however it will still be there for a short while; at least until I can set myself to where I am comfortable.
I am afraid that for some, the Hechicero of the past is gone.
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~ by Hechicero on Thursday, 2008 June 12.
Posted in H. Blanco's Personal Comments.